My dearest Kennedy,
I can't believe youv'e been out of my uterus for nine months. It doesn't seem possible especially when that is the amount of a full term pregnany. I know you are having fun and getting spoiled in heaven but I still wish you were here with me. If you would have make it, you would be two months old now. I have dreams about the person you would have become and watching you grow up. There are days that I still have a hard time seeing babies but it is getting a little bit better. I will always remember you, love you, and miss you. You will always be one of my children. Every time that someone asks me how many children I have, I include you because you were mine from the moment I found out about you. Keep watching down on me. I love and miss you.
Your mommy
Sunday, January 6, 2013
Saturday, December 29, 2012
Christmas and New Year
My angle in heaven,
I really missed you on Christmas day. I kept thinking all day about what it would be like to have a two month old to take care of and was missing it. I imagined helping you unwrap your presents while you tried eating the paper or playing with the noisy toys. I could see your siblings fighting over who was going to hold you and help with you. I know you had a great Christmas day in heaven with Jesus and our family members. I know everyone was spoiling you, I just wished that you could have been spoiled down here. I know that New Years will come and go but you will still be on my mind. I hope you are having fun up there angle, just don't forget mommy down here. I love and miss you angel.
Your mommy
I really missed you on Christmas day. I kept thinking all day about what it would be like to have a two month old to take care of and was missing it. I imagined helping you unwrap your presents while you tried eating the paper or playing with the noisy toys. I could see your siblings fighting over who was going to hold you and help with you. I know you had a great Christmas day in heaven with Jesus and our family members. I know everyone was spoiling you, I just wished that you could have been spoiled down here. I know that New Years will come and go but you will still be on my mind. I hope you are having fun up there angle, just don't forget mommy down here. I love and miss you angel.
Your mommy
Wednesday, December 5, 2012
8 months
Precious angel,
I can't believe it is to the 8 month mark. It doesn't seem possible. I wish you were here everyday. I cant help but keep thinking that I would have a baby to take care of if you wouldn't have left. I know your have fun in heaven but I'd rather have you here and taking care of you. I still have trouble looking at babies that were born around the time you were supposed to be without tearing up. It makes me think about you and the baby you would have been. Everytime I feel your sister move, I dream or think about you since I missed out on it with you. My angel I love and miss you everyday. Keep watching down on me.
Your mommy
I can't believe it is to the 8 month mark. It doesn't seem possible. I wish you were here everyday. I cant help but keep thinking that I would have a baby to take care of if you wouldn't have left. I know your have fun in heaven but I'd rather have you here and taking care of you. I still have trouble looking at babies that were born around the time you were supposed to be without tearing up. It makes me think about you and the baby you would have been. Everytime I feel your sister move, I dream or think about you since I missed out on it with you. My angel I love and miss you everyday. Keep watching down on me.
Your mommy
Saturday, November 24, 2012
Thanksgiving
Precious angel,
I hope you had a great first thanksgiving in heaven. I missed you bad that day my angel. I kept thinking about what it would have been like to take care of you like I should have been doing. I know the family would have spoiled you and you would have loved it. I know that you are being spoiled up in heaven everyday but it isn't the same thing. I'd rather have you here instead of there. I wanted to be able to take care of you and get to know the precious baby you would have become. I wanted to watch you grow up and make me proud of the adult you would have become. I dream about you and everything I know you would have done or accomplished. Every time I feel your sister move and kick, it warms my heart because I think of you and what it would have felt like to feel you do that inside me. I feel robbed because I didn't get that far with you or even have the chance to hold and love on you. I love and miss you my angel.
Your mommy
I hope you had a great first thanksgiving in heaven. I missed you bad that day my angel. I kept thinking about what it would have been like to take care of you like I should have been doing. I know the family would have spoiled you and you would have loved it. I know that you are being spoiled up in heaven everyday but it isn't the same thing. I'd rather have you here instead of there. I wanted to be able to take care of you and get to know the precious baby you would have become. I wanted to watch you grow up and make me proud of the adult you would have become. I dream about you and everything I know you would have done or accomplished. Every time I feel your sister move and kick, it warms my heart because I think of you and what it would have felt like to feel you do that inside me. I feel robbed because I didn't get that far with you or even have the chance to hold and love on you. I love and miss you my angel.
Your mommy
Tuesday, November 6, 2012
7 months
My Dearest Kennedy,
I know I'm a couple days late posting but your on my mind every day. I can't help but to wish that you were here instead of in heaven. I have dreams about what it would have been like to be taking care of you and watching you grow up. Your due date came and went which was hard that day and that weekend. I keep thinking that I should have a newborn to take care of instead of mourning your loss. Your siblings helped me get through that weekend but I still missed u like I do everyday. I look at the ultrasound pictures of u that I have hanging on the wall and dream about the baby you would have become. I wish I would have gotten to experience everything with you that I am experiencing with your sibling. I missed feeling you kick and turn inside me. I missed the special time we would have gotten to spend together while you were inside me and then when you were born. I missed just being pregnant with you for a whole nine months. I'm glad I got 11 weeks with you but I wish I could have had more. I know it sounds like a selfish mom but I am entitled. I had my baby taken from me before I got the chance to say hello. Watch over me my angel and have fun in heaven with everyone. I love and miss you everyday.
Your mommy
I know I'm a couple days late posting but your on my mind every day. I can't help but to wish that you were here instead of in heaven. I have dreams about what it would have been like to be taking care of you and watching you grow up. Your due date came and went which was hard that day and that weekend. I keep thinking that I should have a newborn to take care of instead of mourning your loss. Your siblings helped me get through that weekend but I still missed u like I do everyday. I look at the ultrasound pictures of u that I have hanging on the wall and dream about the baby you would have become. I wish I would have gotten to experience everything with you that I am experiencing with your sibling. I missed feeling you kick and turn inside me. I missed the special time we would have gotten to spend together while you were inside me and then when you were born. I missed just being pregnant with you for a whole nine months. I'm glad I got 11 weeks with you but I wish I could have had more. I know it sounds like a selfish mom but I am entitled. I had my baby taken from me before I got the chance to say hello. Watch over me my angel and have fun in heaven with everyone. I love and miss you everyday.
Your mommy
Thursday, October 18, 2012
Due Date
To my precious angel,
Today was your due date. This is the day that I was supposed to be holding and cuddling you but God had different plans for you. I dreamed last night about the baby you would have been and what you would have looked like. I dreamed about you crying and doing all the things that babies do. How can a mother get through the day knowing that her angel was supposed to be born alive? I don't know how I did it but I did. You were on my mind all day. I miss you angel but I know that you are having fun in heaven. I just wish I would have been able to have you and know the person I am proud of. Everytime I felt your sister kick inside me, my thoughts went to you. I wanted to give birth to you and be able to bring you home but that didn't happen. I hope you know how much I love and miss you angel. Have fun in heaven and watch over me. I love and miss you angel.
Your mommy
Today was your due date. This is the day that I was supposed to be holding and cuddling you but God had different plans for you. I dreamed last night about the baby you would have been and what you would have looked like. I dreamed about you crying and doing all the things that babies do. How can a mother get through the day knowing that her angel was supposed to be born alive? I don't know how I did it but I did. You were on my mind all day. I miss you angel but I know that you are having fun in heaven. I just wish I would have been able to have you and know the person I am proud of. Everytime I felt your sister kick inside me, my thoughts went to you. I wanted to give birth to you and be able to bring you home but that didn't happen. I hope you know how much I love and miss you angel. Have fun in heaven and watch over me. I love and miss you angel.
Your mommy
Wednesday, October 3, 2012
6 months
To my angel
I can't believe that it has been half a year since we said goodbye. This was also supposed to be the month you were supposed to be born so mommy isn't having a good month. I love and miss you more each day my angel. There isn't a day that I don't think about the person you were supposed to become and wish you could still be here. I know your having fun in heaven and getting spoiled. Look down on mommy this month please I need it.
Love you and miss you angel
mommy
I can't believe that it has been half a year since we said goodbye. This was also supposed to be the month you were supposed to be born so mommy isn't having a good month. I love and miss you more each day my angel. There isn't a day that I don't think about the person you were supposed to become and wish you could still be here. I know your having fun in heaven and getting spoiled. Look down on mommy this month please I need it.
Love you and miss you angel
mommy
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