My dearest angel
I can't believe we are a month away from the year mark since you went to heaven. It doesn't seem possible. There isn't a day or second that I don't think about you but I know that you are having fun in heaven. I still dream about the person you would have become and wonder what it would be like to have you here. You would be at least four months if I would have went to term with you. I'm not looking forward to next month because it will be a year since I said goodbye without saying hello. I don't know how I will act that day but I know that it will have an effect on me. I'm just glad that I have your ultrasound pictures on the wall, at least I have proff that you were in me and alive at one time. Give everyone kisses for me and tell them I love them. I love and miss you everyday.
Your mommy
Tuesday, March 5, 2013
Thursday, February 7, 2013
10 months
My dearest Angel,
I know I'm late posting but mommy has been busy with your new sister. You were on my mind the whole time though so I didn't forget about you. I kept thinking about what it would have been like to have you here with us and meeting u like I did your sister. I know your having a ball up there but we could have a ball down here to. I can't believe we are getting closer to the one year mark. It doesn't seem like it should have been that long since you left this earth. I have gotten better about seeing pregnant ladies and newborns but it still hurts a little bit. I guess it always will even though I just went through it. You are always never far from my mind and heart. I love you angle and always will.
Your mommy
I know I'm late posting but mommy has been busy with your new sister. You were on my mind the whole time though so I didn't forget about you. I kept thinking about what it would have been like to have you here with us and meeting u like I did your sister. I know your having a ball up there but we could have a ball down here to. I can't believe we are getting closer to the one year mark. It doesn't seem like it should have been that long since you left this earth. I have gotten better about seeing pregnant ladies and newborns but it still hurts a little bit. I guess it always will even though I just went through it. You are always never far from my mind and heart. I love you angle and always will.
Your mommy
Sunday, January 6, 2013
9 months
My dearest Kennedy,
I can't believe youv'e been out of my uterus for nine months. It doesn't seem possible especially when that is the amount of a full term pregnany. I know you are having fun and getting spoiled in heaven but I still wish you were here with me. If you would have make it, you would be two months old now. I have dreams about the person you would have become and watching you grow up. There are days that I still have a hard time seeing babies but it is getting a little bit better. I will always remember you, love you, and miss you. You will always be one of my children. Every time that someone asks me how many children I have, I include you because you were mine from the moment I found out about you. Keep watching down on me. I love and miss you.
Your mommy
I can't believe youv'e been out of my uterus for nine months. It doesn't seem possible especially when that is the amount of a full term pregnany. I know you are having fun and getting spoiled in heaven but I still wish you were here with me. If you would have make it, you would be two months old now. I have dreams about the person you would have become and watching you grow up. There are days that I still have a hard time seeing babies but it is getting a little bit better. I will always remember you, love you, and miss you. You will always be one of my children. Every time that someone asks me how many children I have, I include you because you were mine from the moment I found out about you. Keep watching down on me. I love and miss you.
Your mommy
Saturday, December 29, 2012
Christmas and New Year
My angle in heaven,
I really missed you on Christmas day. I kept thinking all day about what it would be like to have a two month old to take care of and was missing it. I imagined helping you unwrap your presents while you tried eating the paper or playing with the noisy toys. I could see your siblings fighting over who was going to hold you and help with you. I know you had a great Christmas day in heaven with Jesus and our family members. I know everyone was spoiling you, I just wished that you could have been spoiled down here. I know that New Years will come and go but you will still be on my mind. I hope you are having fun up there angle, just don't forget mommy down here. I love and miss you angel.
Your mommy
I really missed you on Christmas day. I kept thinking all day about what it would be like to have a two month old to take care of and was missing it. I imagined helping you unwrap your presents while you tried eating the paper or playing with the noisy toys. I could see your siblings fighting over who was going to hold you and help with you. I know you had a great Christmas day in heaven with Jesus and our family members. I know everyone was spoiling you, I just wished that you could have been spoiled down here. I know that New Years will come and go but you will still be on my mind. I hope you are having fun up there angle, just don't forget mommy down here. I love and miss you angel.
Your mommy
Wednesday, December 5, 2012
8 months
Precious angel,
I can't believe it is to the 8 month mark. It doesn't seem possible. I wish you were here everyday. I cant help but keep thinking that I would have a baby to take care of if you wouldn't have left. I know your have fun in heaven but I'd rather have you here and taking care of you. I still have trouble looking at babies that were born around the time you were supposed to be without tearing up. It makes me think about you and the baby you would have been. Everytime I feel your sister move, I dream or think about you since I missed out on it with you. My angel I love and miss you everyday. Keep watching down on me.
Your mommy
I can't believe it is to the 8 month mark. It doesn't seem possible. I wish you were here everyday. I cant help but keep thinking that I would have a baby to take care of if you wouldn't have left. I know your have fun in heaven but I'd rather have you here and taking care of you. I still have trouble looking at babies that were born around the time you were supposed to be without tearing up. It makes me think about you and the baby you would have been. Everytime I feel your sister move, I dream or think about you since I missed out on it with you. My angel I love and miss you everyday. Keep watching down on me.
Your mommy
Saturday, November 24, 2012
Thanksgiving
Precious angel,
I hope you had a great first thanksgiving in heaven. I missed you bad that day my angel. I kept thinking about what it would have been like to take care of you like I should have been doing. I know the family would have spoiled you and you would have loved it. I know that you are being spoiled up in heaven everyday but it isn't the same thing. I'd rather have you here instead of there. I wanted to be able to take care of you and get to know the precious baby you would have become. I wanted to watch you grow up and make me proud of the adult you would have become. I dream about you and everything I know you would have done or accomplished. Every time I feel your sister move and kick, it warms my heart because I think of you and what it would have felt like to feel you do that inside me. I feel robbed because I didn't get that far with you or even have the chance to hold and love on you. I love and miss you my angel.
Your mommy
I hope you had a great first thanksgiving in heaven. I missed you bad that day my angel. I kept thinking about what it would have been like to take care of you like I should have been doing. I know the family would have spoiled you and you would have loved it. I know that you are being spoiled up in heaven everyday but it isn't the same thing. I'd rather have you here instead of there. I wanted to be able to take care of you and get to know the precious baby you would have become. I wanted to watch you grow up and make me proud of the adult you would have become. I dream about you and everything I know you would have done or accomplished. Every time I feel your sister move and kick, it warms my heart because I think of you and what it would have felt like to feel you do that inside me. I feel robbed because I didn't get that far with you or even have the chance to hold and love on you. I love and miss you my angel.
Your mommy
Tuesday, November 6, 2012
7 months
My Dearest Kennedy,
I know I'm a couple days late posting but your on my mind every day. I can't help but to wish that you were here instead of in heaven. I have dreams about what it would have been like to be taking care of you and watching you grow up. Your due date came and went which was hard that day and that weekend. I keep thinking that I should have a newborn to take care of instead of mourning your loss. Your siblings helped me get through that weekend but I still missed u like I do everyday. I look at the ultrasound pictures of u that I have hanging on the wall and dream about the baby you would have become. I wish I would have gotten to experience everything with you that I am experiencing with your sibling. I missed feeling you kick and turn inside me. I missed the special time we would have gotten to spend together while you were inside me and then when you were born. I missed just being pregnant with you for a whole nine months. I'm glad I got 11 weeks with you but I wish I could have had more. I know it sounds like a selfish mom but I am entitled. I had my baby taken from me before I got the chance to say hello. Watch over me my angel and have fun in heaven with everyone. I love and miss you everyday.
Your mommy
I know I'm a couple days late posting but your on my mind every day. I can't help but to wish that you were here instead of in heaven. I have dreams about what it would have been like to be taking care of you and watching you grow up. Your due date came and went which was hard that day and that weekend. I keep thinking that I should have a newborn to take care of instead of mourning your loss. Your siblings helped me get through that weekend but I still missed u like I do everyday. I look at the ultrasound pictures of u that I have hanging on the wall and dream about the baby you would have become. I wish I would have gotten to experience everything with you that I am experiencing with your sibling. I missed feeling you kick and turn inside me. I missed the special time we would have gotten to spend together while you were inside me and then when you were born. I missed just being pregnant with you for a whole nine months. I'm glad I got 11 weeks with you but I wish I could have had more. I know it sounds like a selfish mom but I am entitled. I had my baby taken from me before I got the chance to say hello. Watch over me my angel and have fun in heaven with everyone. I love and miss you everyday.
Your mommy
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