My Dearest Kennedy,
I know I'm a couple days late posting but your on my mind every day. I can't help but to wish that you were here instead of in heaven. I have dreams about what it would have been like to be taking care of you and watching you grow up. Your due date came and went which was hard that day and that weekend. I keep thinking that I should have a newborn to take care of instead of mourning your loss. Your siblings helped me get through that weekend but I still missed u like I do everyday. I look at the ultrasound pictures of u that I have hanging on the wall and dream about the baby you would have become. I wish I would have gotten to experience everything with you that I am experiencing with your sibling. I missed feeling you kick and turn inside me. I missed the special time we would have gotten to spend together while you were inside me and then when you were born. I missed just being pregnant with you for a whole nine months. I'm glad I got 11 weeks with you but I wish I could have had more. I know it sounds like a selfish mom but I am entitled. I had my baby taken from me before I got the chance to say hello. Watch over me my angel and have fun in heaven with everyone. I love and miss you everyday.
Your mommy
Tuesday, November 6, 2012
Thursday, October 18, 2012
Due Date
To my precious angel,
Today was your due date. This is the day that I was supposed to be holding and cuddling you but God had different plans for you. I dreamed last night about the baby you would have been and what you would have looked like. I dreamed about you crying and doing all the things that babies do. How can a mother get through the day knowing that her angel was supposed to be born alive? I don't know how I did it but I did. You were on my mind all day. I miss you angel but I know that you are having fun in heaven. I just wish I would have been able to have you and know the person I am proud of. Everytime I felt your sister kick inside me, my thoughts went to you. I wanted to give birth to you and be able to bring you home but that didn't happen. I hope you know how much I love and miss you angel. Have fun in heaven and watch over me. I love and miss you angel.
Your mommy
Today was your due date. This is the day that I was supposed to be holding and cuddling you but God had different plans for you. I dreamed last night about the baby you would have been and what you would have looked like. I dreamed about you crying and doing all the things that babies do. How can a mother get through the day knowing that her angel was supposed to be born alive? I don't know how I did it but I did. You were on my mind all day. I miss you angel but I know that you are having fun in heaven. I just wish I would have been able to have you and know the person I am proud of. Everytime I felt your sister kick inside me, my thoughts went to you. I wanted to give birth to you and be able to bring you home but that didn't happen. I hope you know how much I love and miss you angel. Have fun in heaven and watch over me. I love and miss you angel.
Your mommy
Wednesday, October 3, 2012
6 months
To my angel
I can't believe that it has been half a year since we said goodbye. This was also supposed to be the month you were supposed to be born so mommy isn't having a good month. I love and miss you more each day my angel. There isn't a day that I don't think about the person you were supposed to become and wish you could still be here. I know your having fun in heaven and getting spoiled. Look down on mommy this month please I need it.
Love you and miss you angel
mommy
I can't believe that it has been half a year since we said goodbye. This was also supposed to be the month you were supposed to be born so mommy isn't having a good month. I love and miss you more each day my angel. There isn't a day that I don't think about the person you were supposed to become and wish you could still be here. I know your having fun in heaven and getting spoiled. Look down on mommy this month please I need it.
Love you and miss you angel
mommy
Monday, September 3, 2012
5 months
My dearest Kennedy
Where does the time go when a parent loses a child? It seems like it stood still but yet it goes on. I can't believe we are at 5 months since I had to say goodbye to my precious angel. I miss you everyday angel but I know that you are having a blast with all of our family members in heaven. I wish I had carried you to next month and given birth to you. Next month is going to be my hardest because it is your due month. I still dream about the person you would have become and it hurts. Have fun in heaven my angel and don't forget to look down on mommy once in a while.
Your mommy
Where does the time go when a parent loses a child? It seems like it stood still but yet it goes on. I can't believe we are at 5 months since I had to say goodbye to my precious angel. I miss you everyday angel but I know that you are having a blast with all of our family members in heaven. I wish I had carried you to next month and given birth to you. Next month is going to be my hardest because it is your due month. I still dream about the person you would have become and it hurts. Have fun in heaven my angel and don't forget to look down on mommy once in a while.
Your mommy
Saturday, August 4, 2012
4 months
Dear Kennedy,
I can't believe that it has been four months since you left my belly and went to heaven to be an angel. I miss and love you everyday my angel but I know that you are having a blast up there with everyone that passed before you. I still think about what it would be like if you were still in me and I was feeling you kick me everyday. Even though you have a brother or sister on the way, I still wish I could have met you and watched you grow up. Have fun up there my angel. We love and miss you.
Your mommy
I can't believe that it has been four months since you left my belly and went to heaven to be an angel. I miss and love you everyday my angel but I know that you are having a blast up there with everyone that passed before you. I still think about what it would be like if you were still in me and I was feeling you kick me everyday. Even though you have a brother or sister on the way, I still wish I could have met you and watched you grow up. Have fun up there my angel. We love and miss you.
Your mommy
Thursday, July 5, 2012
3 months
Kennedy,
I can't believe it has been three months already since you were in my tummy. I miss and love you everyday angel and hope you are getting spoiled up there by all the family. I still wish you were kicking and moving around in me instead of in heaven. I still dream about the person you would have become and wanted so bad to see that person. You still make me proud to be your mommy even though you are in heaven. Most moms can't say they have an angel watching down on them but I can and I do with pride. Give everyone my love angel and keep looking down on us. We love and miss you angel.
Your mommy
I can't believe it has been three months already since you were in my tummy. I miss and love you everyday angel and hope you are getting spoiled up there by all the family. I still wish you were kicking and moving around in me instead of in heaven. I still dream about the person you would have become and wanted so bad to see that person. You still make me proud to be your mommy even though you are in heaven. Most moms can't say they have an angel watching down on them but I can and I do with pride. Give everyone my love angel and keep looking down on us. We love and miss you angel.
Your mommy
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
Dear Kennedy
To my angel Kennedy in heaven,
I miss and love you angel. There isn't a day that goes by that your not on my mind. Daddy and I are expecting our rainbow baby which is due in February. You won't be forgotten angel. I know that you are having fun in heaven and I will see you some day. I still wish I could have gotten to know you here on earth but at least I can say I have an angel looking over me. You were my fourth baby and always will be my fourth angel. Another baby will not change that fact that I carried you even if it was a short while. When I saw the ultrasound today it took me back to your seven week ultrasound when I heard your heartbeat for the only time. The ultrasounds are different. I have yours proudly displayed in my home on the wall with your siblings. We love and miss you angel. Have fun in heaven.
Your mommy
I miss and love you angel. There isn't a day that goes by that your not on my mind. Daddy and I are expecting our rainbow baby which is due in February. You won't be forgotten angel. I know that you are having fun in heaven and I will see you some day. I still wish I could have gotten to know you here on earth but at least I can say I have an angel looking over me. You were my fourth baby and always will be my fourth angel. Another baby will not change that fact that I carried you even if it was a short while. When I saw the ultrasound today it took me back to your seven week ultrasound when I heard your heartbeat for the only time. The ultrasounds are different. I have yours proudly displayed in my home on the wall with your siblings. We love and miss you angel. Have fun in heaven.
Your mommy
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