Wednesday, June 27, 2012

Dear Kennedy

To my angel Kennedy in heaven,

I miss and love you angel. There isn't a day that goes by that your not on my mind. Daddy and I are expecting our rainbow baby which is due in February. You won't be forgotten angel. I know that you are having fun in heaven and I will see you some day. I still wish I could have gotten to know you here on earth but at least I can say I have an angel looking over me. You were my fourth baby and always will be my fourth angel. Another baby will not change that fact that I carried you even if it was a short while. When I saw the ultrasound today it took me back to your seven week ultrasound when I heard your heartbeat for the only time. The ultrasounds are different. I have yours proudly displayed in my home on the wall with your siblings. We love and miss you angel. Have fun in heaven.

Your mommy

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

Two months

Dear Angel in heaven,

I can't believe its been two months since you left my tummy and into the hands of god. I still miss you everyday my angel. I still find it hard to look at pregnant bellies knowing that I used to have one. I will never know why you had to leave but I wish I at least had an answer. I still dream of what it would be like meeting you in October alive and healthy but I guess that dream will have to be a mystery forever. On the day of your two months, it was a sad and happy day for mommy. It was also your brothers seventh birthday so I had a happy face on while hurting inside. I wish you were still in my tummy kicking me and keeping me up all night. I know you are having fun up there in heaven but just remember to look down on mommy from time to time. I need it my angel. I love you and miss you more and more everyday angel.

Your mommy